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[ I AM. ]
Ruby//Aged 19//From Singapore; not a part of China// Schooling//Wildly infatuated with Johnny Depp<3//In Love with my Boyfriend<3

Likes//Music//Bass guitar//Drums//Coke//Ice Coffee//Milk Tea//Chocolates//Smashing Seafood// Famous Amos Butterscotch and Pecan Cookies//Spiders Slacking//Having Fun//Laughing//Intellect, Humour and Wit

Dislikes//Hip Hop, RnB and Chinese Pop//Cockroaches// Nasty Smelling Stuff//Japan and everything to do with it except sushi//Inconsiderate, rude and selfish people

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Tell Me

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

I've Decided I'm done. Don't care to move on.
Not used to losing someone. If I lost faith, was no choice I made.
I'll except the excuse of no one.
Your careful silence can't replace, your stupid smile.
Casseroles and Handshakes, can't restore 12 damn years of ours.
You stole me.
I don't care to try again. They said, "Time will heal, and time will mend,"
But on Halloween, the last time you left
If I knew, you were never coming back,
I would have, Held on to that last day, instead of, "Here's your keys,"
the last thing I'd say would be "I love you."
and Just in case,
"I'm only myself when I'm with you baby."

Take down my mirror, my pictures of costumes, and youth.
Throw aside posters, and books, and aged fortunes and all that reminds me of you.
With a pat on the back they say, "Honey, it's time to move on. I'm sure we can find you a hobby, now that he's gone."
They stole you.
They don't understand. We were like this since the first time we met.
We were born holding hands.
Give me flowers and cards, I'll smile all they want
If they give me what I want.
Just give me what I want.

... I'll be with you someday.

What a beautiful song.

The baby has gone to hong kong for 5 days. and it feels like when you've had a long holiday and it's gone. i know i always use this description but it really is rather apt, i feel. like, you're having alot of fun, being happy. then it ends. you kinda want it all back but time has passed. sounds like we're breaking up ah, but no lah. he's just gone away for 5 days with no way for me to contact him and i just miss him thats all :(.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

im so freakin happy theres no work tomorrow!!!!!!!!!! SLEEP IN YYEAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

Monday, October 13, 2008

so the second anniversary was settled by the both of us going on a food trail for all our favourite food. but it was a short trail. i would consider it part one and part two should have more!

anyway, i already miss him lots :(. still plenty of love. and hopefully many years to go!

i want to see him more often :(.

Friday, September 26, 2008

I NEED HELP!

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO FOR MY 2ND ANNIVERSARY WITH FADZLY!

Please please please please throw me any ideas you have. THANK YOU.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

i don't know you but from what i understand, this is what i have to say.

you talk about her like she is your world, yet, you do things to let her down. it really gets me wondering..

before you choose to go the wrong way, does her face not appear in your mind? does her love for you not be felt in your heart? i really dont get it.

all while you claim she is your entire world.
bullshit.

however, if it's not what it seems to be, then i sincerely apologise.

ive seen it twice now. how people can hide things so well. it makes me wonder if they were hiding it from people but somehow hiding it from themselves? turning a blind eye to the things they should let go of because it takes too much to do so. so they leave all evidences of the happy times and try to forget the sad times.

sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt. sometimes it takes too much a toll on you.

and then, there's the part where what you see affects you and brings you to an epiphany.

i am one hell of a lucky person. i truly, honestly am not revelling in others misery but it seems that their misery has brought me... i wouldnt say enlightenment but it's certainly opened my eyes and my mind.

my dear, im ever so sorry for making you feel like you werent good enough for me or if you weren't making me happy enough. i was blinded by what i saw that wasnt necessarily the real deal. please forgive me. and i promise i will be so much better a girlfriend :). i love you!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

sometimes, you realise you're not cut out to be the luckiest person on earth.

but then, you think about how you dont have to be the luckiest person on earth because what you have is pretty darn good, you let it go and smile :).

um, just need this here for reference of my own.
#080823160841

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

i miss miss miss miss miss miss miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiss the baby. :(

on another note, renting a car with a moonroof is freakin cool!!!!!!!!

oh i cant wait till 11:30 am 27 august. THE DAY MARKS FREEDOOOOOOOOOM!