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Saturday, September 30, 2006

sigh. we lost the big game..

i really badly wanted to win. to show everyone that tpiranhas can make it. and for another reason which i deem unsafe to put here because the tpiranhas blog network apparently has more readers than it seems.

it'll be terrible to name names so i shall not.. but i must say i was honestly disappointed with a small number of people whom i felt was not their best defense.. i felt like charlotte in the game with blacks. except this game everyone else seemed (and note i use the word seem; maybe everybody was pretending like me) to think we played a good game so i didnt want to be annoying and kick up a big fuss.

i told myself not to cry but i did in the end anyway.

i tell you when the referee blew the last whistle i was just shattered.
shattered.

also i felt it was a little unfair to vie. she was very determined and had so much will. it pained me to see her diving with such passion while the rest who could have, did not do the same. it pained me as well to see that she got a very bad graze on her elbow as a result from all that diving. i felt that the girls should've at least made vie's dives worth it. you know?

i thought dee did very well today with the playmaking and supporting though =), and i apologise.. because after the game, azlina (our vice captain) told me i was very focused about winning today and had been a solo player.. and yes i realise i had. didnt pass off the ball when i had successfully drawn in the defenders. i honestly apologise because i really really really REALLY bloody wanted to win. and i guess it clouded my thoughts.

i sincerely sincerely apologise for that. will definitely learn from this and not let the want to win affect me that way next time.

however i give myself credit for being a pretty good defender. i know made a mistake when i didnt step out from the try area and im sorry. but otherwise, i communicated (which means talking and listening) and i stayed very focused.

when you have the drive, you will focus.
if you dont have the drive, please, dont play or play well all the same because you crush people who sincerely and hungrily want the prize.

im sorry if the last statement sounded harsh but honestly, it isnt fair to those who are starving for the win.

correct me if ive offended any of you. anyway match's over i will move on right after i publish this post.

lets all work hard for next week's game..... :)

Thursday, September 28, 2006

I have a new blog!

no dont worry this old one is not going anywhere.

my other blog is here: http://ruby-at-work.blogspot.com

this blog will reveal to you what kind of people i meet at work. im hoping it'll get readers i dont even know! so spread the word! but not just yet, let me get to maybe a month's posting first.

i dunno how long this will last though coz i will stop work to go back to school one day. haha. then all my fans will be disappointed. cheh, talking fans already ah. lol. anyway go read the first post and comment and tell me what you think! :D

Sunday, September 24, 2006

HOLY COW!!!!!

iim so happy i made MVP!! :D:D:D:D:D. thank you very much dee for telling me coz i honestly didnt know!! hahahaha..

I REALLY WANT TO DO BETTER THAN THAT OKAY GIRLS!!

next week, i will support well, try to create gaps if possible. i will defend like hell, STAY BLOODY FOCUSED! and DIVE if i bloody have to!!!

its another objective i have met! :D to be MVP for at least one game in NTL.

WOO AM I HAPPY!! hahaha.. but ok to be honest, i really think i couldve done much better and i will play better to maybe be mvp again. haha!

many thanks to az and marli who picked me! :D

and thank you to aaaaaaaaallllll the girls who consoled me when i was feeling down and frustrated about the try i couldve made to at least bring us to a draw. i really appreciate it =). as well as supi and ha ha who dropped me messages to tell me i did fantastic. thanks a lot really =). very sweet of you girls.

i wont get complacent though. i really still want this and i am more determined now to dive if i have to, to heck with falling on my chest! only i hope the scratch i had on my butt will be healed by then!! otherwise to open the wound again will be ouch! =x

weeeee!!! hahaha.. ok next objective is to be a playmaker. :D. hope i can effectively draw the defenders!! =) i will need all the advice and tips i can get from your girls okay. :D

Thursday, September 21, 2006

shit, i just found out that some mega loser of a poser lives in my block. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. i think he goes to tp as well. coz i first saw him at the bus stop where i take 23 to go to school. then there was a day where i was going to work and i saw him at the traffic junction. today, as i was walking out of my block, i saw him walking in. damn.

ok then anyway, i bought a pair of neckermann's! from isetan tampines. haha. coz i needed a sweat absorbent footwear for work. and it has to be black and not too sloppy. so i got the one with a diamante buckle at the side. it's papillio's tabora model. just picture a black pair with diamante on the buckle. and it was only $29.90.

on another note, for the first time today i was proud of singaporeans. haha. i was in the train towards tampines and there was an indian couple who was carrying some food in plastic bags. apparently one of them had a tear and soup started dripping out. i offered tissue but they had some. THEN, this auntie and some middle-aged man actually offered stuff! the auntie took out a plastic bag, removed some stuff that was in it and gave it to the couple. i helped then put the food in. then the middle-aged man found that he had a paper bag that he could offer; he was looking for a bag at the same time as the auntie. yah and i was so proud. everyone was stranger to one another but we helped anyway. this is how singaporeans should be man. not waiting to scramble on to the train at city hall or being kiasu.

just managed to check my gpa today. and well things are not going the way i want them to. my gpa has been declining! my best one was when i was in marketing man! but at least it's still above 3. which is my basic aim, but what i really want is a gpa above 3.5. basically i got Bs and B+s. no As. its okay, expected that. what's surprising is that i got a B+ for multicam but B for audiopro. and i got more As in audiopro for assignments! probably the weightage of the assignments are different. anyhoos, hopefully next semester i get to take broadcast performance; i heard lots of people are going for that one. and if i do, i wonder if i should aim for a Z. haha. in TP a Z is distinction.

but i don't wanna hope too much, you know what i mean? later disappointed only. this saturdays game's with SRC B, i hope we'll do well! we just gotta stay focus and i think we will play a good game. jeez i get lightheaded just thinking about it coz our average is the same right now and saturday will break the tie. i dunno man! SRC seems to be getting stronger!! their game with wantoks only rendered a 2 - 1 loss! whereas we lost 6 - 1. ok i need to stop thinking about this. SMILE RUBY. :D. lol.

Monday, September 18, 2006

SEPTEMBER 19 IS TALK LIKE A PIRATE DAY. :D
visit: http://www.talklikeapirate.com

On another note, ive been thinking about Aisya. haha.. k see, Aisya is the one who started touch rugby for women in my school. and till this day, almost 10 years from when tpiranhas first started (it started in 1997), she pops by to help our team train. however, she has also started being the coach for a club SRC; team B.

Which makes my thoughts go wonky.

its like, she's the pioneer of our team, and still coaching our team, but also coaching a rival team. im not faulting her for any of it. its just that this can keep me thinking for a long long time. hahaha..

questions like who she would support in the upcoming NTL match. Many say of course SRC B, well yea maybe its that obvious but, i dunno.. if it were me, who would i pick? maybe if i knew the src girls personally it would be hard. so this decision in my point of view will obviously be biased. its just weird to me.. haha.. its like.. lee kuan yew founding singapore and going to be prime minister of like.. australia or something. and then they go to war.. who will lee kuan yew support? lol, something like that you know.. along that line. also maybe coz tpiranhas' coach is marli, so she has to divert her attention elsewhere? thing is, whatever reason i come up with, this will come back:

Aisya founded tpiranhas.

that's why i can think for a long long time.. and i can think long and hard enough to keep me quiet. so maybe that's a good thing. lol.

this also brings me to ifa. she joined SRC B and will be playing in that team for NTL. i read her blog and she mentioned growing to love the team which made me feel.. i dunno, jealous? jealous is not quite the word, maybe a little scared. she IS the captain of tpiranhas.. tsk why all the important people want to go elsewhere haha.. except marli, our coach, and i am very appreciative of the attention and effort she puts into coaching our team. i wonder how ifa will feel when she's playing against us? haha.. i guess we'll see then!

good night y'all.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

this is a pretty long post.

know what, at the moment, i actually have 3 things i wanna grow-up to.

1) A presenter on Discovery travel & living.

why?

coz its my TWO loves!! one, i love travelling, and thats why im intending to join SIA. and two, i love talking to the camera. i think i would make a pretty decent presenter. i am articulate, i am confident, and i can be funny when i want to. so this job is number one because its my two loves. and i think it really shows when you have passion for something. i know im not fantastically good looking, maybe i dont have a tv face but, who knows. but im not ugly that's for sure.

2) an SIA stewardess.

because i want to travel. haha this is more like plan B. or a plan leading to plan A. after ive wisened up, ive always wanted to travel and see things from other citizens' point of view. like what living is like in europe, in africa, in russia, in hong kong and places like shanghai (dont say i never name asian countries). its like, i dont just want to travel and visit the tourist attractions but be in the country and let the environment and culture seep in. you know, the air, the temperature, the weather the local stuff..

3) a principal.

i can hear some of you laughing already. haha. well, if i stay in singapore, what i want to do is make some sort of government school that has lots and lots of opportunities! and i'll take in absolutely anyone.

i dont need you to be a fucking prodigy, in fact, i will reject those. i will take in the ordinary folk and expose them to a million things like playing different instruments (rather than the mandatory recorder), exposing them to more interesting science (like making food flavours, perfumes and stuff) and things like engineering (on top of the physics, chem and bio coz there are students who will dig these subjects), cooking too! and dnt stuff.. i will have a myriad of sports for kids to try out in physical ed class. not just basketball and baseball or even rugby but even more exotic ones like underwater hockey or that european sport where they lock each other head to head and try to make the opponent fall using their legs. haha. yea whatever sport there is and if the kids can handle it, i wanna let them try it.

of course to let all these actually happen, i will need shitloads of money and manpower. the main idea is for this school to expose ordinary kids to much more than what they are exposed to right now. we'll offer them scholarships to learn whatever they're good at, the cello, the drums, pay for field trips to competitions overseas. i really would like this to happen because once i start this trend, perhaps all the other schools will follow and that will greatly increase the chances of every kid being able to do something he loves and is good at, or at least find out what they are truly capable of. wow this has the longest description doesnt it? lol.

i think this aim is probably a reflection on something i felt i was deprived of. (damn upper serangoon, im sorry but i truly felt you destroyed my secondary school life. no sports cca, no art, no lit. what the fuck is that? some teachers were borderline crappy even.) once i wanted to go to australia to study coz i felt like the opportunities there were amazing. you were good even thought your grades werent ace. coz they expose you to alot more things like music arts and whatever potential you showed.

anyway my dear readers, wouldnt YOU send your child to my school if this really happened? you dont need fantastic scores, government school fees rate, but so much more your child is exposed to and so much higher your child's confidence level will be. btw if some of your are wondering how i will pick the people who will go to my school, im not quite there yet. but i think it'll be based on score. and there'll be a maximum score lah. probably 235. yea, above that, sorry you're too smart. unless they come for an interview, then maybe. :D

ok so on to the next topic.

yesterday tpiranhas played against wanderers taniwha (wantoks) and we lost 6 - 1. but that is a fucking good score i tell you! coach's aim was not to let the score difference be more than 6. and we did it! :D

also i did something good yesterday which i am proud of. i think the setting of objectives every week really helps me coz then i focus very much on it and improve from there. fantastic score by vie that gave us the one point. we were cheering like mad lah i think the wantoks were probably like "huh one score only so happy.." haha, yes we were ecstatic! coz we managed to at least score one against such a strong team like you! :D hopefully tpiranhas can grow together and improve till we are of wantok's standard. tpiranhas who read this and feel that we cant, i think we can! we just need to want it, surely we can. :)