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Saturday, March 31, 2007

hey steph, i think you will like this!

did a quiz on love language. here are my results!

Score	Love Language
5	Words of Affirmation
8	Quality Time
3	Receiving of Gifts
7	Acts of Service
7	Physical Touch


How to interpret your Profile Score:

Your highest score indicates your primary love language. Your second highest score indicates your secondary love language. If two scores are identical, you are bilingual (you have two primary love languages). If the scores of your primary and your secondary language are close (for example, 10 & 9 respectfully), it indicates both are important to you. Whatever a significant other does to express love in either of these languages will get emotional points with you. The highest possible score for any language is 12.

Having a clear picture of your primary & secondary love languages will explain much of your past behavior Think back over the past and ask yourself "What have I most often requested from significant others?" Chances are your answer will lie within the scope of your primary & secondary love languages. You have been requesting that which would meet your deepest need for emotional love.

here is the link if you guys wanna attempt the quiz!
http://www.greaterquest.com/LoveLanguages.asp

you know, i was never a person to give in and accept situations without first trying my darndest best to change it.

but sometimes in life, you get into situations where things are no longer in your hands. and you can do nothing but sit there and sulk.

firstly, i hate being in situations like that. because i want to change things, because if given the chance, i know i CAN change things.

going to fadzly's house for a movie marathon failed because his parents didnt leave for JB. it was a terrible terrible disappointment for both of us. but fadzly handled i better than i did. and i think i should learn from him. it took me abit longer to cheer up and be more positive towards the situation. we were still spending time together, so that was the key point i suppose.

the main "event" we were both looking forward to during the sleep over really was well, falling asleep in each others' arms. just that.

none of the condoms, vibrator and video camera nonsense isaac cooked up. haha.

the whole disappointment felt very similar to the emotions i felt when i didnt get the elective i wanted. very disappointed, close to being on the verge of crying but really not all that hurt. the part that sucked the most was actually the accepting.

accepting that you honestly can do no more but to deal with the disappointment and make-do with second best.

so i suppose todays incident taught me a lesson on acceptance. im definitely not going to change overnight but im pretty sure i wont take so long or say stupid things like "yah i am going home what" (im really sorry baby :(, i regretted it the moment it came out of my mouth. please forgive me!) the next time im put in a situation like that.

Monday, March 26, 2007

got this from steph's blog! it was rather fun to do. different sort of quiz.. no words, just pictures for you to choose.

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

i'll just follow steph and tell you guys what came out. said that i was a person who liked to live for the day, take things as they come. and that i like to relax.. unwind and switch off (haha, relax is a positive word for laziness really). and that love means long-term committment to me. also said i am a romantic and have a taste for the exotic! which is true! hehe.

try the quiz!

warning! rather long post! but read! i promise you its entertaining. :D
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i was just back from another escapade with fadzly amir!

today was fun fun fun and much reminiscence (sp?) of childhood. heh. so he came over to my place to hang out. and then we went for lunch at the nearby market place. after that, i didnt wanna go home yet (in another words, i didnt want to leave him so soon). so i decided we shall hang out at the playground in the estate opposite the market.

so we went there... and made friends!! hahaha.. omg, we played old old games with the kids like colour catching and blind mice and what have you!! and remember the "do you have kkb?" trick question? works only on boys coz its either they dont have kukubird or they have king kong breast. HAHA!! i totally forgot about KKB lah! lmao.

then later, fadzly became very popular with all the little boys because he could send their small blue rubber football soaring into the sky. damn cute to see them playing. fadzly kicking the ball and the kids trying to catch it and asking him to kick it again and again. he is going to be a wonderful father. haha. =x.

there was this one girl who asked me if fadzly and i were boyfriend and girlfriend. then i said yes. and you know what she said?

"huuuuuhhh??? how can malay and chinese be together?"

and i was like WOAH. how (insert word) is this girl!! hahaha.. couldnt believe it. fadzly said its only coz they're young and they dont know. but i reckon it could be parental influence. tag your comments on this!! esp those who are in inter-racial relationship!

and then later, we had to leave, so we were walking off, and this really cute small malay boy whom we had been playing with; named shaf, was whispering something to the above mentioned girl (we didnt get all their names, sorry!). and fadzly was like "what what! what did he say?" coz they were giggling and all. and then the girl said "he said you two are boyfriend and girlfriend."

then we looked at each other and went, "yah! we are what!" and then we hugged each other from the sides (if you can picture). and the kids went:

"EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" hahahahahahahaha DAMN CUTE LAH!!!!

the chinese kids were a little bit obnoxious but the malay kids were cute (there is no racism here i PROMISE you. yes, even though i am biased. but i promise you, no - racism - here.) all the kids were like, "are you coming back again tomorrow? what time?" hahaha.. and yes! we are going back tomorrow. after which fadzly and i will head off to training. heh.

oh oh!! then earlier, when we havent started playing games but were just talking to shaf (coz he was one of the earlier kids), we were also looking at loads (and i mean loads) of millipedes on the floor. shaf said he collected them and put them in his room. so i asked him:

"do they crawl into your bed at night?" and he went:

"no, they go into my pants."

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!!!! HE IS ADORABLE!!! but he kept being bullied by this chinese kid so he was quite kesian and i tried to protect him but i couldnt really. haha. the chinese call him black chicken lah!! wah lau eh. so bad. but i said, its okay! black chicken more expensive than white chicken! hahaha..

i think every one of us should go out and have a day like fadzly and i did. it will really help being the child out in you and help you have fun and relax. its true!! okaaay, so fadzly and i really were winning all the catching games coz we were fast but hey! it was still fun. heh.

see you all around! :)

Friday, March 23, 2007

haha! okay im amused now.

have i fallen into some racer friendster circle or something? coz ive gotten 2 requests in a week by car fanatics. see print screens below. and, maybe some of you think 2 is nothing but i never get picked up on friendster before! lol. as in, i never got hi-care-to-make-friends messages ever.

click on them to get a larger view!

and if you're curious as to what i replied. um, well. the first guy i told him to add me instead. and no news until today. the second guy.. man he sounds rich. look at his car. haha. its probably why he has pictures of it up there. regional IT project manager leh. he seems quite learned too. like, not those very typical kind of chinese people. his message also not that broken english. fadzly.. you got competition. hahaha I AM JUST KIDDING. im just gonna reply with a yea sure but if he shows too much interest i will send fadzly to him in a box. hahaha.

STL game 4 tomorrow! rather excited because im always excited to play some touch. :D. i shall let all the tags go out of my head and just concentrate on playing a kick-ass game tomorrow. see you all soon!

Thursday, March 22, 2007

well, i am upset. but this is one of the things where, no matter what you do, things are already out of your own hands. so i cant change anything. that's why ive decided to perhaps just suppress it and not talk about it.

i miss fadzly amir because he is in redang.

another thing, im upset about is why a team mate would resort to using a fake name to leave such a tag on my board. honestly, that tag wasnt malicious or mean or bitchy. it seemed pretty much like constructive criticism to me. which i will happily accept.

i was always a person who constantly wants to improve myself. my character, athletic abilities, my interpersonal skills and leadership skills. i never try to deny or make excuses if i know i am in the wrong.

i know it might seem awkward for you or that you are afraid to leave your real name. but i rather we talk this out than carry on the pretentiousness. i hate pretentiousness. come on, nobody likes that right? we are a team, i will accept your criticism. and like i said, i never pointed any fingers. and im sorry if whatever i said or posted is misconstrued as pointing fingers.

please come talk to me okay? i would really appreciate this and im sure theres no harm in clearing things up :). i'll see you on saturday.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Last STL Game was really bad. looking at the results just made me feel shittier.

we beat JJC 8-1.
we lost Bedok 0-4.

JJC and Bedok was a 3-5 score. which means the margin in which JJC lost was even smaller than ours.

but perhaps it is a blessing in disguise. to show us that without the drive, the want, we are nothing.

so i hope we can pick up in our game this coming saturday. perhaps i wont say who it shall be against first. but i know this game will surely help to pull up our average if we play really hard.

i got this from shimona's blog:

"i appreciate initiative.
i dont like to prompt.
it kinda spoils the meaning of things."

I think i agree with it almost fully.

Monday, March 19, 2007

this post will be a tribute to how well my baby has done in the semi finals. :D

you did awesome love!! so darn proud of you!! i bet all the girls watching thought you were cute and plus you had that smiley shirt which made you even MORE cute. i wanted to go like, "YEA! that's MY BOYFRIEND!! WOOOOOOOOO!!". hehehe.

keep up the good work love. congratulations on all the good news yesterday.. getting selected to play in the premier league AND making man of the match.

I LOVE YOU!!
and im always proud of you!! :D

kick ass again in the finals yea? I know you can do it! :)

Thursday, March 15, 2007

sometimes im afraid i will become too clingy. i need assurance, yet i know clingy girls drive their boyfriends away.

this afternoon, i woke up and got pissed by my brother. which in turn made me grumpy and swear-ish when on the phone with fadzly. and i know its totally stupid and i think i need anger management or at least a way to tune my brother out so he doesnt get on my nerves so much.

i thot fadzly got angry, he said no, but i'll never know. and then i got abit scared. i dunno if its coz of a past experience or something.. where my ex boyfriend got mad and at that point of time.. it led to a break-up. even though i wasnt clingy about it.

i guess you just mean too much to me to even bear the thought of losing you. and i get all worried. but i thot i shouldnt start a sms-frenzy of "are you angry?" or you would get annoyed and really leave. so i left you alone, but i was scared throughout. from afternoon up until through the dinner, until i told you i was sad about somehing. you replied empathetically and it was only then i felt everything would be okay.

i feel my past relationship makes me very worried when something goes abit wrong in the relationship because from what ive experienced, it leads to me being dumped and heartbroken. nobody likes that and everybody is afraid of that.

baby im not saying you will dump me but maybe help me tide over this initial period of a new relationship? im sure in time i will be over all of this okay?

i love you :).

Sunday, March 11, 2007

update for STL game 2!

we played bucks margaritas and won 7 - 1. even though there were alot more subs. standard was the same really.. and actually i thought they were not as good as hocus pocus. but nvm. at least we won them by a fair bit.

some comittment and drive issues came up and i hope it will be resolved soon. like as mentioned, everyone is tired. even if you dont want to sub, you can say so. all we want is some acknowldgement.

contact training after that! was enjoyable.. didnt break anything. but really would be nice if it werent just 5 of us there. 6 plus hannan. hahaha. learnt about a couple of things and improved my tan. :D. am i still white fadzly? hahaha. excited to learn more! :)

izyan, yah badminton rocks. i work out until damn shiok. but all go down the drain when i ate ban mian and red ruby. hahaha. cb, a full bowl of noodles PLUS dessert. tsk tsk tsk. sinful.

steph, haha dun lah.. i will make the bike tyre pancit. then embarrassing coz it will make a farting noise. hahahahha.. then the wayang music will come to a stop also. maybe we ride the double bike instead. whatever that is called. i tried before with some other friend, a long time ago. couldnt work. i was the back person and we couldnt even get the bike to move. hahahha. i will see you at training!

norman! when can i see you again?!

Saturday, March 10, 2007

fadzly and i went to bukit panjang pasar malam today.

there were many many ramly burger stalls that were selling goreng pisang and chempedak and all the other normal pasar-malam goodies. chinese sausage.. nuggets etc. there were also many stalls selling handphone covers, pirated vcds, kids toys; like plastic action hero masks and dolls.

after grabbing a kebab, sugar cane juice, goreng pisang and chempedak and fadzly some chestnuts, we went to the park we always went to to consume food.

so after eating, we were just sitting and talking and looking at kids play.

conversation went to the topic of prettiness. and fadzly said im pretty. then i said i wanted plastic surgery to get double eyelids. he said, "you dont need lah!" then i explained that i had double eyelids just that, if there is such a thing, they were too deep so i still looked like i had single eye lids. then i said i wanted to fix my nose, make it smaller. you know what he said?

*makes a face*
"you go lah go! go buy the $1 ultraman mask and wear!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUCKING FUNNY LAH! i started laughing like some crazy woman. but the kids never run away. hahaha, so maybe it wasnt scary enough. lol.

anyway pantat, it was sweet of you to think the idea of me needing plastic surgery is ridiculous. hahaha. =). i love you!

oh! we also played bandminton in the afternoon. and man.. it was a close call. really couldnt tell who won.

hahahaha, just kidding. fadzly won lah. and like.. by alot. not that any of us was counting. it was just to blatantly obvious how many times the shuttlecock fell to the floor on my side. it was a good good work out! although i now have blisters on my feet (coz i played barefooted) and my right arm is trembling abit. haha.

STL game 2 tomorrow! hope to give it my best! :D

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Haha!

You Are Marsha Marsha Marshmallow Ice Cream

Outdoorsy and gluttonous, yup, that's you!

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

this is the sort of quiz where you just type in your name and they generate a random answer for you. but this is actually true! lol!

Sunday, March 04, 2007

YESTERDAY, fadzly and i went to watch an ice hockey match!! haha cool or what!

anyhoos i cant remember the name of the competition but it was one of those big tournaments that involved a couple of countries.. and we happened to be there on the day of the finals!

rather exciting, super fast-paced game.. but what was quite an eyesore were the SPGs standing up and cheering for the players.

i have NOTHING against SPGs.. i can see why some women would prefer white men. but, why dress SO FREAKIN TRASHY. omg! white buttoned up shirt with a BLACK BRA underneath.. how typical and trashy. pfft. and not to mention skin-tight pants. after that i told fadzly she might be a tranny coz it looked like she had a dick. HAHAHAHAHAHA. and fadzly was like "EH! YAH AH!" hhahahaha.. fucking funny lah.

okay, anyway, back to the game. there was this really cute chubby guy.. number 17, named lebedev. haha HEGOTSKILLZYO. lol. and he damn cute lah.. he kena shoved or something like twice.. i dunno why the other team were picking on him..

one time, 2 players fought with the referee somemore. DAMN FUNNY. hahahaha after that they kenna sin-binned. kwa kwa kwa..

i was cheering for the black team (the ones wearing black, i think they should be japan but im really not sure) coz they were losing. and at the start of the game fadzly said the white team is better. tsk you got hockey experience so i really didnt know. anyhoos, at the end, the score was 6 - 1.

and then it was off to CCK for some butt-smashing ban mian.

about STL updates, last week's match was post-poned due to poor field conditions. we will be playing bucks margaritas this saturday though!

see y'all then.