Wednesday, February 22, 2006

more about work. i found something to help time pass along. and that is.......

to arrange the shirts nicely and in order of sizes. nicely as in, neatly, make sure they look like straight piles. and yes, that means picking up every piece and making sure they align at the ends. was doing it halfway today then i realised, dont do so much, leave some for tomorrow. haha..

i cant wait for training to start!! im sure the rest of the girls feel the same way ok digression, i hate it when my msn doesnt work =(. damn, i cant play prison touch, SAD LAH. coz i gotta work. ungku told me he reviewd some people coming in from dunno which batch for the rugby team. kind of cool, i hope they're passionate =). im kind of excited about the GIRL'S team!! when school reopens, we're gonna have to rope people to join rugby right? ooooooo HOW TERRIBLY EXCITING!!! no really!! :D:D. i shall start planning what we should do. wahahahhaa..

work again tomorrow at 11. hmm.. it may seem daunting but i guess.. it goes along.. and well it is still very boring, but after i found what i can do, i think i should be able to while some time away. im not going to wear a watch because that will only make time pass slower. haha. also, if anyone calls me or smses me between 11 - 5, im sorry i cannot reply because my handphone is not with me, they dont let you bring it in. and from 5 to 6 i will be contactable; that's my break. and from 6 to 9 uncontactable. and after that, contactable! i mean, well not uncontactable lah but, i wont be able to return your calls or smses fast.

anyhoo, some customers are quite bad, im irritated by those who dont respond when i give them a chirpy "hello!" and i feel like i wanna force them to talk so ask a lot of questions hahahaha.. then there are those who take the shirt and dunno how to fold back, i mean, these shirts are only folded halfway across, not THAT hard to do right? and OH MAN, i gotta tell you about this one. this indian man (ok im not being racist, im just telling it as it is), comes to try out one of the slippers that are only in size 40, then, he RIPS then apart, no, dont get excited, as in, you know that nylon string thingy that holds the pair of slippers together? yea, he rips that one and i couldnt stop him in time (AIYO, like you will die if you try one pair with the other pair semi attached to it). so then, he takes off his shoes, and he takes off his socks, and he puts them on. by the time he takes off his socks i was already going like "euuurgh". and then, IT DIDNT FIT. so okay, he puts the slippers back into the wagon AND THEN YOU KNOW WHAT HE DOES!!!!!

He put his foot on the top of the wagon!! TO PUT BACK A PLASTER ON HIS FEET!!!!!!!!! OMGGGGGGGZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. lol. like, you know, when you wanna tie shoelace and you prop your feet up on a kerb or something, yea he did that, BAREFOOTED. major gross. i didnt want to touch that slipper again. yuck.

sleep time. good night!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

work is alright. except:

1) it is SO, B-O-R-BORING

2) GNIROB-R-O-B ,OS si ti

3) Did i mention it was boring?

the standing up well, sucks but, i can sit sometimes. i just wish they would provide a chair so i dont have to rely on the reflection of the glass to see if anyone comes along.

Monday, February 20, 2006

ok this is just a biased point of view because it is MY view:

i cant believe people can just talk about music and complain about their love life when they've just wasted their parents money by failing their o levels; and VERY TERRIBLY i might add. and he talks about it like nothing's happened, like taking a course at ITE wont cost any more money (or waste time like when he should have gone there straight after failing his N levels) and moving to another country for further studies wont waste anymore money. obviously his priorities in life are TOTALLY FUCKED UP. but this is just my opinion; where studies rank pretty high in my list.

second:
you know, you can be pretty likeable when you're not trying to be domineering and trying to put others down because you think they're incapable of doing things as well as you can. to some extent that might be true but it doesnt give you reason to butt in when people have got things under control. it just bugs the SHIT out of people.

i got a temp job! tomorrow till sunday, selling children's apparel, 11am - 9pm, $5 per hour. not a bad job, seeing as how she describes the yes-you-will-be-alone job would mean its a slackfest. i just have to look out for people who steal things i guess. otherwise its coming out of my pocket right? and i dont want that to happen. i am still at a lost as to what im suppose to do really. oh well, the pay's not half bad. see you guys soon i hope. i really really hope. =) miss everyone loads.

raudha, get well soon =).

Friday, February 17, 2006

god, i can be SO whiny sometimes! lol. i was reading through my posts, and when i got to the one where i talked about 3 things that bothered me, i couldnt be well, bothered, to read through point 2. haha. guess that's over. which is good.

i think im going to work, for about a month. earn abit, for school fees. then again, i wanna buy a couple of stuff. =\.

ok i definitely need a fitting miniskirt coz the one that i have is too loose and a little too long. i also need some sandals, my birks, and a new bag. and belts! that's not too much right? oh and i want that lanvin perfume. i will make up my mind when i get a whiff of escada's pacific paradise. i heard its good! =)

damn i also have yet to meet the dude for the shoe bag at bishan, but thats so fucking out of the way. i guess i need to ask someone out to town so i can drop by bishan then go to orchard? haha.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

a day at the beach with unkgu ungku:

we built crap with the sand and the prized one was this: a cat's head with a front wall to prevent the waves from getting it. so we put in so much effort, to build the wall (i mean, the cat had a MOUSTACHE and EYES! must protect! hahaha.. we used seaweed and erm.. this black thing which i suspect is charcoal hmm..) so the waves came and went and the wall was still holding strong; yes, our wall was pretty good. and then all of a sudden this MASSIVE one comes up and destroys EVERYTHING. the wall AND the cat!! like.. not a trace was left, not even a mound of sand. lol. then we just laughed it off. hahahahahaha.. we were like damned kids. but obviously much bigger.

expectedly/surprisingly, ungku was less active than me. he was the one doing the lying down while i was well, playing with sand. ahahaha.. my tanlines, still there although nto as obvious anymore? i hope. thats what ungku said. but anyhoos, i need to shop. magazines are such influential things. hahaha..

i had a dream yesterday, maybe 2 dreams. and, im wondering if its what i should heed, or just my subconcious letting out what ive been pondering about.

uhhhhhh holidays gonna fly by, and im already partially embracing myself for the hell of a an academic year come april.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

man: what a relief! i thought it was something worse than that!
little boy: worse than the total agony, of being in love?
man: (stares at boy for a moment).. right.

i think this is the first time ive spent valentines at home. i mean, apart from the childhood days ah when valentines was.. well, we wouldnt have known what valentines was. not like it really matters though. haha. was ACTUALLY suppose to spend it with raudha but the poor dear fell sick. =( aww, i hope you get better soon. then tried to create some plan with unkgu but, all the ideas, 2 people, 2 boring.

I GOT MY FIRST EVER ROSE. from my uncle. ahahahahaha.. but oh well, its something. and 2 vday messages from steph and ha ha. happy vday to you too sweethearts =).

maaaaaaan i need exercise. im eating like a hippo. that is NOT a good thing. shit shit shit shit. i just CANNOT resist the temptation of food! i need a diet buddy. hahaha. who wants to lose 3kg? already skinny people do NOT qualify.

and to all the lovebugs out there, happy valentines! mother fuckers, so late already all still not online.. hahahaha..

Monday, February 13, 2006

wah lau my backside pain! hahaha..

I LOVE RUGBY TALK. and its awesome that i can do that with RAUDHA now.

raudha and i have the eternal unanswered question of why we'd make great girlfriends but there's no guy who wants to take us. hahahahha.. a couple of reasons why we'd make great girlfriends is because, we EAT, like, hell yea, we EAT. we're open but not way open like, slutty-open. we crap around alot. we do stupid things; ie we're not afraid to be embarrassed. we're nice =). we're into sports! we're smart! we're funny. okay maybe only to ourselves but (hahahaha). we dont mind guffawing in public. haha. alright i'll shut up.

im thinking about joining blacks for contact training. and stay in school for touch. then i hope schoolwork wont kill me.

thats about it.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

warning: long post.

3 things are bothering me.

1) I am damn jealous of artsy people. there's this half of me telling me to give up because people are born with artsy talent. its like, you're either creative, or you just cant be for nuts. i dont want that. the other half tells me i should continue, and i will make it one day. then this other thought came into my mind, maybe God wants to show me that people dont have to be born with talents; that talents can be nurtured. because i have the thinking that people are born with talents. oh well, i dont know :s. i can conjure up these amazing images in my mind, with vivid colour and intricate details, nothing close to it comes out on the paper. although i must say my work is improving, even if only by minute decimals.. it IS still improving. its just that, when i look at how good other people are, it makes me feel so inferior and discouraged because i know i have so much to work on when they were born with those talents that i have to work so hard for. I have the idea of going back to VisComm in TP when im good enough. that wont be until when im in my 20s, or even in my 30s. who knows. but i have that idea.

2) The dreaded BGR issues. ok, right now, i am sceptical. but then again, so was i when hakim broke up with me. and THEN there i was, about a year down the road, having a crush on someone, and hoping things would work out. but, as i can clearly see, although not always acknowledge or realise, things never work out. ok maybe 'never' is too strong a word because there are marriages that blossom from teenage relationships. however, at this point of time, i am going to be a pessimist. what makes ME so special to enjoy such a priviledge? My head tells me to not get involved with such things, i did tell myself that when i entered poly, because i know all too well that i AM a person who gets distracted when shit happens. And shit happening will lead to more shit because my unmotivated mediocre work will garner.. well, mediocre grades. which will be crap when i snap out of the whole delusion. But your heart and your head NEVER agree. i dont know about others but that's how it is for me.

My heart ALWAYS betrays.
People say you should listen to what your heart says. I beg to differ, because sometimes your heart doesnt know what's best for you.

Coz your heart's like a child, she'd want to gobble up on all the chocolates, and candies, skip the "icky" stuff like vegetables. Your head's the mom, your head knows all that chocolates and candies are just going to make you feel awful. your head knows the vegetables, albeit how you think theyd taste bad, is what's good for you. but.. one day, the child will grow up, and see things from the mom's point of view.. i hope that day can come sooner for me. the sooner the better please.

what sucks most is that i know some time down the road, i will forget all this. and probably fall, and come back to the exact same thing.

3) When things that you read and things that you hear dont exactly hmm.. whats the word.. MATCH. ok. you'd begin to ask alot of questions. its like, i hear Reason A from person A, Reason B from Person B, and Reason C from Source C. And throw in the rest of the alphabet. then again.. this issue that's bothering me pertains to Issue No. 2. So um, i really dont know. Actually.. i KNOW what im suppose to do, how i should think. its just hard to stick to that conclusion. really.

Anyhoos, i met up with steph, ungku, faarisi and abang setan (aha) today for the initial plan of bowling, in which, much to our dismay, was unavailable for the first hour due to the crowd. tried to find an alternative activity but to no avail. they played some pool while waiting for the 10pm slot that azhar managed to score because the girl at the counter recognised him as a student from TP. The "match" was quite funny with everyone bowling really badly at the first roll. then suddenly faarisi scored a 5 and strike and action alot. hahahaha. after that ungku kicked all of their butts badly. we should go earlier please, so i can play AND make my curfew. =). and we should play where the gutters can be covered. ahahaha..

i love you all!
rugby with raudha tomorrow. the Rs are love. Ruby and Raudha sitting in a tree. K-I-D-D-I-N-G. nyah ha. coz we're always making jokes.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

I AM DAMN HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND YOU KNOW WHYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

BECAUSE I KNOW HOW TO DRAW NOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

COMPLETE WITH NOSTRILS WITHOUT MAKING IT LOOK PIGGISH!

omg EUPHORIA PLEASE!!!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDD.
wahahahahahahhhaa.. woohoo!

Friday, February 03, 2006

more sweet words. from raudha this time:

Never have i once wished i was with someone else whenever i'm with you.

omgzzzzzzzz MELT PLEASE!!
im no lesbian. :D

MY FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT IS TOO QUIET. CAN YOU PEOPLE LIVEN IT UP PLEEEEEEEEEASE?

damn, handed in mmprin/percom project late and thus.. we are going to have 50% of the marks cut off. which is crap, but, ive stopped moping about it since nothing can be done anymore. all we need to do now is to, i quote isaac, "blow mrs nah" hahahaha.. he means to blow her away lah.

damn funny lah you isaac. hanging out with you alot of shit can come out. like laughing at corny (HAHA), and the sheriff crap, and the WOAH BOY! hahahaha.. you wre the only one who could madeus laugh after we resigned to the dreadful fate of having half our marks deducted. hoho.

need to start studying please. still got photojournalism and the presentation for the next percom part. dang. i really just ACE mmprin. i hope i can do that. coz if i have 1 A at least i can pull up the GPA. i really wanna get above 3.

oh yea, today (yesterday? look at the time!), tpiranhas had a meeting. a few issues were addressed. even the one about the girls team and the guys team crossing lines. basically the conclusion was, you can have your personal life, whether involving a person from the guys team or not, but you should be able to be professional about it and seperate rugby from your personal life.

then there was the committee thing. almost everyone got a post, and.. isnt it suppose to be a COMMITTEE? that means.. an organisation within the team right? if everyone's in it, it'll just be another team. but, oh well, the seniors must feel everyone should play a part.

i volunteered for public relations. then angie suggested sher. i got a teeny weeny bit upset and was just trying to act normal but just got more self-conscious. haha. not that im jealous but, it gave me the idea that, people dont think im up to standard or that i just wanna fool around. im good with PR kinda stuff! maybe i havent proven myself? oh, i did get in in the end lah, but after someone said PR can have more people. then miao joined in too after being volunteered by gale.

people, if you happen to think i suck at something, tell me. i am a person who takes criticism constructively. dont tell me i suck at keeping quiet, everyone knows that. it might not change very soon either. and when you tell me what you dont like about me, dont be a bitch about it if you really mean to help me. coz i'll just flare up and take a piss right back at you.

i always enjoy talking to raudha. because, we know what we're talking about. and, we help make each other feel better, or at least i hope so on my part. raudha huns, you're very much appreciated, dont sweat it about your lonesomeness ok. your girlfriends can help distract you. its not gonna help you sleep at night, at but at least in the day you can be happy =). i love you.

mmprin deadline tomorrow. somehow im looking forward to it even though the project is not done. DAMN, then must start studying. AAAAAAAAND, percom speech! i havent practiced! maybe i should tomorrow. but where sia. everyone will stare 0_0. haha.. mMm.. this might be a last post! before i start my mmprin studies. i dont know how i did for photog (esp with the stupid quizzes), journalism and percom (more quizzes, argh). i know i can manage at least a B for mmprin. still wanna keep my GPA above 3. must at least above 3. last sem i got 3.4. i know i might not hit that this sem. but heres to hoping.

i pray next sem i'll get to take graphic design.
good night. good luck for your tests. if you need a study buddy, im free after 10 feb. i love you all very very much. mwah.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

ive had diarrhoea so many times ive lost count :s. and my stomach hurts from time to time.

stupid mmprin project. and i fucking just realised oral presentation is tomorrow and i havent really practiced my speech. fuck.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

GOSH. i was the ONLY person from T03 to actually turn up for photography lecture. barely 2 rows were filled! middle row, to my right, only 4 people, in front, 5 or 6 people, to my left in the other section, 2 people. the lecture ended like 1 hour early haha.

MMPRIN PROJECT IS MIND-BOGGLING! and ive realised that without the supervision of Fera Rosihan, we are at a lost. After she left today, everyone just started crapping around.

Also, farij did the cutest thing of messaging me: "You have tissue? =>" when he was sitting near me at the design canteen. haha.

After project, time was spent with members. eat, talk then CS. an old game, i know. but what the heck, its fun right? bloody farij is like, damn freaking good lah. and im no longer the worst player because, MAS joined in and shes new. lol. oh well.

been doing alot of thinking, and coming to conclusions. the final rebuttal sitting in the reserve bench. haha. yep. this is what i shall do. and i know i can do it. =) i have grown sceptical of things, and i guess, this is the path im choosing.

theres this thing that would probably stay in my head though. the picture on the card was a boy with a palette of paint colours and a paintbrush. i cant remember the name of the card. anyway, i also remember creative and quiet. that's all. and im writing it down here in case i should forget one day. hahaha..

good luck with tests people, you guys should start studying now.

seriously, some of the people i meet are so amazingly.. amazing. here's something isaac said to me last night.. well.. ok this morning.

anyways, i think you are a damn amazing person.. seriously. weird funny sweet. hahaha no no i am not sugercoating ya cause you are feeling down. its the truth... and ya. you can ask may and all, we discussed abt ya. muahaha.... and if ** ****** **********. ** ** ***** ** *** ** *** biggest ***** i have ever know. ***** **.

hahahahaha.. awesome right. my smile went right past my ears. lol. he does mafia services if i need also. lmao. good night.